Okay, since there's all articles about how negative I was, how hopeless I felt. 
My friends should be annoyed by those 'foolish' articles.


Sick of cheering up myself again and again, started to ask myself, is this the one you want?
Did you choose this because of someone? Are you loving what you doing now? If you are, why do you always intend to escape from work? You should love them, if you are. 

Lots of time management, and useful articles I read. Too many. I was trying to find a way to manage all the things and I got introduced to too many ways. However, in conclusion, I know what those articles trying to tell and I adopt some points that I would love to experiment in my life.

I am a shilly-shally person. Take some examples from lately, I was looking and reading parts of the book by Lauren Vanderkam, which is called "168 hours: You have more time than you think". From my mid semester break till now, more than a month, I am still thinking: Should I buy it? Will it be useful? On the other hand, I saw my housemate, Sarah, she bought a whole new set of protection cover for her Mac and S3 phone. Then I started to search eBay, and do my online shopping for my Note2. I am quite sure I did the 'online shopping' for more than 3 times on the same website and wasted so much time ending with buying nothing. The reason is because I didn't find the cover that I want. Or maybe, in fact, I dont really need it. I have my own using cover. 
And sometimes I think, a smartphone is not smart at all, it is stupid to me. I spent my dad's money on buying the 'expensive, high tech' smartphone, and then I wasted my time before bed on scrolling and playing it. Waste my time and hurt my eyes. It's just silly. Am I talking myself? Haha, yes. I wanted a new Android device for me to stay connected with my family and friends in Malaysia. But, did I? Did I use it well? Somehow, I think I use it well. I message my mom almost everyday. Sharing my status and feelings with my sisters. And it is how I use my phone now. I lost my S Pen, so it doesn't matter whether how good the S pen works. I just used it to take self shots, messaging and make alarm.

So, forget about those ridiculous things. I read a book about working 4 hours per day. Is it possible? I think maybe it really works. I can tell. Sometimes I sit in front of my laptop or on the working desk for a day (except lunch and dinner time), but I didn't do much work. It's the difference between keep myself 'productive' and 'active'. I am always just active, but not productive. I made a one week plan for myself to complete my design task but I didn't follow it at all, and the plan made me feel guilty and hopeless, somehow. So, I shouldn't force myself to wake up early or sleep less for sitting on the working desk to complete my task, but having sufficient sleep and good mood on working. Then you should be productive enough in that time. Don't let the time fill you, but you fill the time. 

Review your goals when you feel depress. Yes, my final goals that I want so desperately. There's ten things I want to do. And another is the target I have to archive when I am capable to do and have them. I am trying my best to do what I want to, but the biggest and hardest one. I should work harder, to become an attentive architect. 


Found this useful, to divide my tasks.