3/2/2015 Mardi.

It has been a few days, or almost a week, I feel unhappy and dissatisfied with my current situation.
In fact, I shouldn't be having this negative thought. I should feel thankful to everything I have at the moment, be inspired by positive people around me and keep moving on, making 'it' true, but letting things merely going on in mind.


My indecisive might be the biggest reason for this weird phase of myself. I feel lazy to do something, but the conservative mind of I making myself feel bad and guilty. I can pretend well as I am calm, but my inner side.


This has been always happening in my life since I had graduated from high school in 2011. Some small changes in life can really lead to a huge difference: losing friends with similar circumstance and attitude...Understood that I am responsible to this, for my sake.



5/2/2015 Jeudi.

Positive thoughts jumped in and out a few times these days, and I struggled.
Instead of writing, I start to change through my actions and give responses to surroundings. If I am willing to step out, the universe may give me something. I want to believe that.

With my positive drug, Coldplay, I feel superb. I am so addicted to the Coldplay beats, they are so great. I guess I am healing myself well, being able to communicate with yourself and find the right solution can be the best way to raise EQ. And someone said that being emotional in this age is considered normal.

The speaking test today focused on 'time' issue. Maybe she was really expecting me to describe the feeling of waiting for someone, but I found myself more in the situation to keep others waiting. (feeling guilty)